My Personal Thoughts

I have not been feeling very good recently. It is not about having any sickness. My emotional have been feeling quite down. I have been thinking a lot too. It's all about my upcoming wedding.

Bridal Package
My bridal package is from Mr & Miss Wedding Club. Why do we choose the package in the beginning? I do not have the answer but maybe it is just Yuan Fen ba. We sign up because we felt their package is within our budget & it is quite comprehensive. When we signed up, we tried to ask them to write everything in black & white. After the contract was signed & deposit paid, the sales was not as friendly as she was in the initial stage. This got me worried. I decide to go online & checked. I was quite shocked to find out that about 90% of the comments to the company was negative. Worst I already paid 80% of my package to the company. I cant just forgo my money. Recently, when we went to choose our gown, we realised that the company had changed their management. Accordingly to the staff, there was just a change of management & not a change of boss. Okie we took their word. But the company name had been change to VENUS. I checked on the forum again & read from some of them that the old boss had actually sell his company. I really have bad impression on the company. They keep reassuring me that there will be no problem. They even insist I made full payment during my photography session. This is impossible coz I wont be as stupid again. Also, their photography skill & gowns are not fantastic at all. They don't allow us to choose the photographer. Anyway I saw from the forum that the company is left with 1 photographer only. His photography skill sucks. Sigh Im seriously very very worried. I worried that my photographs will be ugly. Even JHB studio pictures are nicer than theirs. I am afraid the company will close down even before my big day. Im really very very worried. Casey's suggested we get another photography session from JHB but im relunctant to do so as I dont wish to spend so much. Moreover, the photographs will be kept in the storerooms after our wedding. I just keep my finger cross that the company won't close down before my Big Day. Im very very upset. I have start looking for contigency plans. If im given a 2nd chance, I will defiintely go JHB to get the bridal pkg. The staff there are so much professional than the singapore ones. They wont hardsell to you just because they want to earn more commission.

My future in law
As usual, I feel upset lo. Casey's friend visited us yesterday. His friend just got married not long ago. Their marriage was a last minute decison as his wife was pregnant. Even though their marriage was a last minute decision, at least the male family respected the female family. They gave everything that is needed to the female family. Like dowry, suckling pig etc. Sigh, it make me think that Casey's family don't bother about me at all. We got a whole yr to prepare our wedding. But until NOW, there wasnt any official discussion between the 2 family. I really feel 心理不平横. I feel their family treat me like nothing or is this my life that I brought from my last life. Last time, Hengky Stanley's mum also treated me like shit which is 1000xxx worst than now. I will never forget how she treated me & Im sure one day she will get her own karma. I really feel very unhappy but there isnt anything we can do. Sometimes, I really feel im letting my parents down. Sigh, altough marriage should be 2 person's thing but my parents are more traditional. Now, they are marrying their daugther off but seems like giving their daughter away. I know my parents are not happy with my in laws but they just say nothing in order not to give me more stress.

This few weeks I just feel so down with the above 2 issues. I just have no more mood to prepare for my wedding. I just feel like hiding away & cancel the wedding. But everything is too late liao la .. hahah coz I already sign..